it's starting to kick in.. this will be my last baby.. and it's hurting me so much that I will never…

it's starting to kick in.. this will be my last baby.. and it's hurting me so much that I will never experience normal labor. I did once when I lost my twins at 19 weeks but it's not the same. this will be my 4th c section. and I'm so scared. my second c section reopen and my 3rd it was just bad. I was so itchy I made my nose bleed I felt like I couldn't breath.. so I'm just so scared... sorry so long