I'm having a moment so bare with me I just need to release a little bit of my emotions I hope that's ok!!
I'm currently 22 weeks and absolutely can't wait until my little man comes!! He is really the only thing that makes me happy right now. Since I've been pregnant I feel like I've made a positive change for myself. I instantly got a better job and left my stupid serving job which I hated so much, I moved in with my dad who is helping me out a lot and I have been going back to church regularly which is also a major part of my life. However there's still apart of me that kind of feels unfulfilled if that makes sense?
Me and my baby's father aren't together and I honestly think that is what's best because he's kind of just a sucky person and I don't trust him at all but I'm hoping that one day he'll get his act together. He hasn't been there for me at all and that makes me sad but I just ultimately feel like there's nothing I can do about it. His mom wants to be really involved though which I think is a super good thing.
I just feel like my life is very routined right now, even though I have this huge life changing event to look forward to I just often find myself feeling sad or low. Like right now I'm sitting at work, pretty bored, not much to do but I just feel like crying.
Sorry I know this was long and I know many won't read but I just need a little bit of encouragement right now because even though I know I'm so blessed I just feel really alone.