I need a friend. I'm depressed as fuck. I've already attempted suicide (may 2011). I don't have one real friend. I'm pregnant again and I'm just sad as fuck I burden everyone I'm fat I just wanna fucking cut myself but I can't and I just want to know I'm not alone in feeling this way. I feel like I already fail as a mom and my bf isn't as supportive as he used to be idk if having two kids is scaring him but I need some support because I'm not getting any and I'm ready to go to the hospital for a 72 hr evaluation. I'm sick of being sad.
they really don't need me. no one does and everyone makes it very clear. I haven't been this sad since that gun was in my hand almost five years ago. I just wanna feel appericated and important and not like a burden....I'm so much stronger now but I'm losing this battle with depression. my meds aren't working. I can't smoke as much pot (medicinal) and I'm just having a hard time