So I'm pregnant with my 3rd child (I have all boys) my last pregnancy almost killed me and when I…

So I'm pregnant with my 3rd child (I have all boys) my last pregnancy almost killed me and when I gave birth to my son I didn't get my epidural or anything at all. I have natural births so the pain with him was horrible and I couldn't hold him on my own till the next day, i am literally terrified of going through that again. he was born at 36 weeks but was healthy I'm nervous I'm going to have this one early and him not be ok like my youngest.. my dr and I have discussed everything including me getting induced. I just want to have a good pregnancy no complications my oldest son wasn't as bad but my youngest and this one I feel like I'm dying 😔