I feel like such a burden lately to everyone's lives...I really wish I didn't feel this way...I wish…
I feel like such a burden lately to everyone's lives...I really wish I didn't feel this way...I wish I didn't have to feel so depressed or stressed, but its like a neverending thing anymore. I see no light at the end of the tunnel. I don't know how much more I can keep pretending everything is fine before I collapse. When I try to help, I only seem to cause problems and everyone is constantly pissed off at me....sometimes I wonder why I still exist. Seriously. Since the day I was born, I never had it easy, but I won't put the blame on my parents...I blame myself for the person I became, no matter the circumstances I was dealt. I blame myself for my mistakes. I don't blame anyone else but myself. I just wish I could finally for once feel like I am worth the air I breathe. And sometimes, no matter how strong my faith, it feels like not even God is on my side. Like he is sick of me too. I know this doesn't make any sense to anyone but me, but I swear, ultimately, I wish I could be somebody else. And to top it all off, I should be happy about my son being born in just a few weeks....but the problem is, Im terrified. I am so scared to bring a newborn into this life....I am afraid of everything in regard to him. Its not that I don't know how to parent him, because Lord knows I do and I have enough love to go around for all of my kids...but I KNOW I am gona have Post Partum Depression, and we all know how serious that can be. I am scared of him being around the stress and sadness and everything I can't control..God, I just wanna be someone else.
khrysta·
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xoxo love ya girl.im here if ya need me
Mandy·
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I'm sorry you're feeling like this, if you ever need anyone to talk to I'm here for you, seriously! If you want send me a private message and I can give you my number!
Brittani 👑🌻·
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I have the same feelings, but don't feel like that. Believe it or not you have made a difference in my life and I don't know you personally so I'm one person that you have helped! I always love seeing your post on the newsfeed because it's always so positive and you're always making so many women feel better about themselves. You do matter! If you need to talk. Message me anytime. ❤️
Becky·
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Ditto what @megbaby07 said! 😊
missing74user·
Thank you all so much. Seriously. Just had a terrible time with ny depression getting the best of me today. Its been happening far too much lately. I want to blame pregnancy hormones....but I had this problem before pregnancy, and I know its only gotten worse due to the hor hormones, and will still exist after I have him. I just wish there was a better way than everything Im doing and trying, and I wish I could just be happy in life, but everything is so complicated and stressful every day. I dunno. But thank you all so much for being there, its really great to have people who care and who are willing to listen and talk. I am glad I could make an impact on your life, if even a small way, @megbaby07 - you are always SO sweet. @bubblebeck thank you so much! xo @m8626 you have no idea how much that means. Thank you. And if need be, I will surely send that message over! xo @babyanakin you are amazing. love you too. You are so sweet. xoxooz
Mandy·
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@sarahemccormick, no problem ☺️