I hate feeling down. so many things are bringing me to this point. I have a baby crib I havent put…

I hate feeling down. so many things are bringing me to this point. I have a baby crib I havent put up due to my room is so fucking small that it would just crowd the room. im waiting to put it up if or when I move into my home.........my husband.... my son is 10 days old and sleeps with me. I truly thought this time around would be different. I want to cry my eyes out. I didnt want to be at my fathers when I had my son.