Did I mention Im not suppose to have kids, at the age of 17 my OB doctor told me I wasn't able to…

Did I mention Im not suppose to have kids, at the age of 17 my OB doctor told me I wasn't able to have kids & left the room leaving me there speechless along with my mom and older sister. I was heart broken and dealt with those emotions. Ive been with my SO for 10 years, married 6 of those years and never once got a positive pregnancy test. It was something we dealt with in our own ways, to watch my siblings have kids and be play mom to them when I watched them, was hard to say the least. Here I am 25 years old going on my second trimester with our first baby, it hasn't hit me all the way, I still don't believe it even after seeing our baby, I feel like it's a trick and Im living a dream. I haven't got to hear the heart beat but did see it moving, maybe that's why I haven't fully accepted it. I don't know how to feel at the moment, one day Im in love, the next Im on pins&needles; waiting for it to be taken away from me. I put having kids behind me and dealt with all those heartbroken emotions and that hurts my feelings to say that because I have a baby bean who is loved by many already and I haven't accepted that Im pregnant :(