wow has my depression been hitting me really hard lately. I thought I was getting better but now…

wow has my depression been hitting me really hard lately. I thought I was getting better but now that im no longer aeeing.my therapist its getting worse. I find myself just crying every single day and it doesnt help that my bf is not here he doesnt finish school till next month, I live in a horrible home where I am literally the outcast in the corner who tries so hard to help everyone while my sister eho is the nastiest person I have ever met gets the world. I dont have a place yet for my family to go once I give birth and nothing is planned for the baby shower. I have so much on top of me and I feel like everything is caving in. And the worst part is I find myself taking it out on my bf who isnt doing anything wrong he is even taking double classes to finish school by the 6th so there is a month till the baby is due. he is trying so hard but since he is the I only one that cares im taking it out on him. I want to just fast forward my life to where im stable. and get as far away from this house as I can.

rant over