I AM SO GODDAMN PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW LIKE HAIR ON FIRE ABOUT TO EXPLODE ON THESE STUPID NURSES!!!!!!…

I AM SO GODDAMN PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW LIKE HAIR ON FIRE ABOUT TO EXPLODE ON THESE STUPID NURSES!!!!!!

So I'm told that their keeping Emmalyn to watch her feedings. Emmalyn isn't on a schedule their any more. They feed her when they think she wants to be fed and they will feed her how ever much she will take. So you guys are encouraging the snacking? Yet her nurse that just called me said oh yeah you need to get her off the snacking . BITCH HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO GET HER OFF THE SNACKING WHEN IM ONLY ABLE TO COME AND SIT IN ON ONE OR TWO FEEDINGS OUT OF EIGHT FEEDINGS THAT SHE HAS?!?! Then wants to tell me well there are sometimes she will drink 110 ml and others she will drink 35 ml. Okay are you stupid? You try eating three sushi rolls at one sitting then come back and are you going to eat that same three sushi rolls if your full? No you may eat maybe a half of one or one. So how are you expecting a baby to eat at least 78 ml at each feeding if she ate 10 minutes ago 110 ml? LIKE THAT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE TO ME !!! Then your going to report back to one out of six doctors that have seen her how shes eating and they are going to keep her longer because your not understanding that MAYBE AT SOME TIME SHES FULL!!!!!! You guys did make it so that she wasnt eating her first week of life and now that you have introduced her to food she thinks she needs to have a full belly every second!!!

And stop asking me how breastfeeding is going. You guys already stripped me of that bond with her. Especially since you didnt let me even start putting her to breast a few days ago and shes been there for two weeks!!!!! I am SO FED UP WITH THIS HOSPITAL!!!!!!

Sorry big mommy rant. Im tired. Im feeling defeated. I just want my baby home. LETS NOT ADD SHE DOESN'T EVEN HAVE INSURANCE!!!!!! Medicaid hasn't contacted me back since I've put in my application. So this mama is FUCKED big time.

Think about this for a week straight 8 times a day she had x rays. Think about that bill just itself.

But thank god my baby is healthy again. None of this matters, she is healthy.