I keep having light contractions but no big ones yet 😡 I want my water to break but at the same time…

I keep having light contractions but no big ones yet 😡 I want my water to break but at the same time I'm also dreading it because contractions suck 😂 Although I'm also remembering them from being induced, and from what the Dr says, pitocin makes the pain way worse than natural ones, so I have no idea what's gonna happen! I just want my lil princess here ❤👸