The one moment in my life that I thought would never happen did. And I feel lonely as hell.…

The one moment in my life that I thought would never happen did. And I feel lonely as hell. Currently balling my eyes out, SO just left to go hang out with his friends, which i don't care. but im so upset because my bf has stood me up twice and has yet to say anything about it. I may have a clue as to why she has been avoiding me but this just sucks. its been me and her for the last 4 going on 5 yrs and I always thought i would have someone to talk baby talk to. I don't even wanna go do my baby registry or plan a baby shower. This isnt at all what I thought my first pregnancy would be like......