Birth Plan Rant

I used to be all about getting an epidural, but after research and thinking about it more I want to have an unmedicated birth (this is my first baby). What annoys me is when I say that I'm going to TRY my hardest to have a natural and unmedicated birth people always feel the need to say that I'm crazy or that I'm going to change my mind when I get in that position. Or that epidurals are the best. I do realize that plans change, but why can't people be supportive and encouraging?

Getting to the point where I don't think I want anybody at the hospital when I give birth

why do I keep thinking something bad is gonna happen to me and my baby at birth 😑 so annoying I keep thinking of death/still birth ect.... anyone else?

I think I'm having after birth depression 💔

I hated life and my baby too💔💔