I wish I could be appreciated for what I fucking do.. I feel as if my SO always bitches about…

I wish I could be appreciated for what I fucking do.. I feel as if my SO always bitches about somethin on a daily bases as soon as he gets up. An nothin I do is ever good enough anymore. Yea the house is a little messy but I have no energy an been blacking out a lot again. .. Why can't I just get appreciated for something I mean come on... I'm having an emotional break down an I can't take much more....