So last night I had a dream about the father of my child ,me and the baby it was so perfect . but…

So last night I had a dream about the father of my child ,me and the baby it was so perfect . but the fact that he is in jail and has been in jail since I got pregnant and won't be out till shes 4months or so maybe older sucks. I just want to go crazy. I miss him a lot but the way he wants to live his life and treat others Inculding me is not good at all. I don't want to bring someone else in the picture either. I want him as a person but not his choices ugh I'm so confused and hurt..