My birthday is coming up in February. I would love to do something special for myself or ask someone for a mani/pedi or prenatal massage. but anytime I ask for anything at all my husband's mom makes me feel horrible about it since I don't have a job. I don't like that either but I feel like I deserve something special especially after all we have been through this month. I would really just love to get away from everyone for a couple of days but we don't have the money and I don't have anywhere to go...

I feel like I need more mommy support. or just support in general. I have my husband who's trying to make up for his mistake and my friend who I never see and she's not pregnant.. I'm just ready for the new year so we can have a fresh start.