I had the same thing... When i went to deliver my daughter i pushed her head out just to have her pushed back in because the doctor couldn't get her out i had a 4th degree tear which is through all the layers of skin front to back.. I had to have a c section on top of that! I was away from her for two weeks i was exhausted and on top of that she couldn't latch on... I was so frustrated i got super depressed and i felt guilty because it took me a whole two months to finally have a connection with her... It takes time, things will get better!

keep your head up high hopefully things change and you can enjoy

Don't feel horrible! The recovery for me was harder than any part of pregnancy! I could hardly walk right until 6-8 weeks pp. I cried every time he latched. It does get better! ❤️ you're not alone!