I hate when my babies father isn't understanding of my emotions. I'm sitting here balling my eyes…

I hate when my babies father isn't understanding of my emotions. I'm sitting here balling my eyes out right? He asks why and I tell him. Basically a girl I know took a video of another girl I know who had overdosed. The one girl called the ambulance and got help for the other just in time. My town has recently over the past two years had a huge spike in heroin which is how I had gotten addicted, thankfully I got help because I know I needed it and I wanted it. In the last 2 months I have went to 8 funerals due to that horrible drug taken over someone's life. I'm really upset about this because the girl I know is only 18 years old and has a 4 1/2 year old little girl. Who she JUST got custody back. (She got her kid taken away because she was put in placement) When I seen that video not only did I automatically cry because it's hard seeing it and hearing it in general but then seeing it happen to someone you personally know is even more heartbreaking. The first thought that popped in my head was, what and how is that little girl gonna do without a mom? My second thought was if I hadn't gotten my life straight that could potentially have been me. The girl is okay but is back out on the street doing it again. Sometimes people never learn. I just wish she would take my advice I gave her Months ago and give the shit up, because in all reality it's not worth loosing your family over a feelings of needing but in general wanting a high. I'm sorry I just needed to get this off my chest and vent a little so I don't get stressed about it. Oh by the way this incident happened this morning between 1-3am.