It's gonna be so hard today to go tell my kids at church all about God today when I feel heartbroken…

It's gonna be so hard today to go tell my kids at church all about God today when I feel heartbroken inside. I know God is still in control and if I'm not pregnant it's because He knows the future and He knows I can't handle it yet. But my flesh is weak and every time I go to the bathroom and the proof that I'm not pregnant is there I just cry and wish God would let me know why. It's really hard on your faith. Its not ib either because I took another test. B. F. N.