i never really had a good Christmas even growing up and now that my mom passed away and everyone not…

i never really had a good Christmas even growing up and now that my mom passed away and everyone not all the way grown up but grown its not the same and the fact that my bf family keeps showing off there money and stuff there getting for Christmas is really irritating others cant even get the stuff they got let alone showin it off not coo at all just really irritated... ugh if only i had a job and was able to get my kids stuff and not sruggle.. ugh wish i had friends to talk to... 😒