I can't believe I'm up. like seriously.. I want to cry. went to bed at like 8:30-9 and up at 11:50…

I can't believe I'm up. like seriously.. I want to cry. went to bed at like 8:30-9 and up at 11:50 with no intention of falling back to sleep. why is this happening,man. I'm so upset. my baby shower was yesterday so I haven't been getting much sleep. I know my body tired sooooo why won't I just fall asleep.