I'm starting to lose my mind. Long status warning needing to vent and let out some steam.
I've been doing alright so far even though nothing from my birth plan to after has gone easily or the way I hoped for. From wanting an all natural child birth that turned into getting induced, being in labor for almost 3 days, and resulting to having an emergency c-section and none of my other birth plans working out either. Then fighting off an infection and spending extra time in the hospital. The hospital not giving me my rohgam shot within the timespan and now it will effect my next pregnancy. Then breastfeeding not going well where my baby wasn't getting what she needed and switching to doing both breast and formula and receiving so much hateful words from mine and his families because she wasn't gaining weight. Then spending almost a week in the hospital because she wasn't and doctors saying I was doing the right thing at home because it was a sodium thing and not my fault despite what the family was telling me. And now, my c-section incision has opened up and is bleeding. I'm so down after everything is going against me.