my kids are going to their dads house tomorrow I hate when they do but I have to remind myself I may…

my kids are going to their dads house tomorrow I hate when they do but I have to remind myself I may hate him but they still love him I just get scared they won't come back 😞 I'm just going to go to bed early its hard on me when they leave...I feel like ill still be lonely even though I have their baby brother but I want them all but sometimes that's the way life is..