I pray I get a job before December IDC if I'm in school full time it breaks my heart to hear my kids…

I pray I get a job before December IDC if I'm in school full time it breaks my heart to hear my kids as for certain presents not knowing I can afford anything my son wants and ipad which I own to them because a abusive crazy thieving drug head ex stole all my kids electronics plus mine and bounced...I'm just so sad and stressed even if I can't give them that I want to at least get some kind of toy for them like a Nerf gun my oldest wants or some power ranger or ninja turtle my 3 year old would like,I just don't want my oldest to go to school while all the kids brag about what they got and he got nothing,I know its not about presents but kids don't understand that and. even if they do apart if them would still like one,I feel like a failure ,every dime/penny goes to bills ....depressing