I don't really care at this point if my body after my 5th child gets ruined or if I have thousands…

I don't really care at this point if my body after my 5th child gets ruined or if I have thousands of stretch marks or if I will never get to be thin again. I'm 44 yrs. old and all I pray for is God to take care of me on this high risk pregnancy and take care of my baby so I can raise him and still raise my other 4.