HATE BEING ALONE AND I AM ALONE....I just want to sleep but nurses are too busy to take alex him, I want to hold him but I am scared I'm gonna hurt him and all I want to do is cry. but don't want alex to see me cry...ugh I just want to be home...to nursery and watch

I just want to cry
I'm being induced. Baby has no heartbeat. I am numb and just want to die.
I am miserable. I just want to cry.
It's my burfday and I'll cry if I want to ....cry if I want to🎉🎊🎉🎊🎉🎊! Haha no crying in the literal sense but man the times flies !! Anyone wanna guess how old I am today ?
ok I just got a message from my Hubby's ex that says leave him alone I want him back I said you want to break up a marriage she said yes now I'm sitting her crying can someone please explain that to me uggh