i cant imagine how it feels to lose a child . the pain it would cause and daily complications of…

i cant imagine how it feels to lose a child . the pain it would cause and daily complications of mourning. i never even slightly understood until i became pregnant & my heart truly goes out to those parents. its made me even more grateful for carrying my child & has brought me closer to god. that kind of thing can happen to anyone and i just pray for a healthy baby & delivery. id like to believe God is giving me a gift in this child & not punishing me or teasing me for my sins in the past. it took my husband and i 8 years to finally conceive and part of me hasnt fully accepted because i am afraid and sort of in disbelief. i wonder what makes me different from those women who lost, or if i am any different at all. i would be completely devistated and never believe in anything again. could that be a test for me, to give me pain so deep i no longer believe . im only human, a mere mortal and thats exactly what would happen. Reading everyones posts everyday here on preggie has opened my eyes to so many things. its made me patient, understanding and forgiving. some of you women have given me strength and hope and i find myself praying for women i dont even know. we are all so beautiful in all ways given, & i just hope all of you ladies will never forget that. not today, tomorrow, not ever ... for the rest of our lives !!

blessings to all ...

i just had to express myself somewhow .