I miss the father of my child so much. But he has completely disappeared, with absolute no touch except to tell me I am a horrible person for bringing a fatherless child into the world... I feel stupid for even still missing and caring about him after all the pain and hurt he has caused... This whole not helping who you love thing stinks..... Should I reach out. I want to but afraid of what he will say, and very scared of him making me feel bad for no reason. At 31 weeks, the baby shower is in 3 weeks... Doing it alone... Maternity shoot doing it alone, everything, doing it alone... It's so hard and I have developed a complete new level of respect for single mothers. So sad yet determined.