I'm so in love with our daughter. I keep crying when I look at her 💜 it's just a completely…

I'm so in love with our daughter. I keep crying when I look at her 💜 it's just a completely overwhelming feeling.

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I won't say it isn't stressful. I feel like maybe women are not very open about the struggles of adjusting into postpartum. So I'm gonna share some of that side with you. I'm an emotional mess. It seems like everything good or bad is sending me into tears. The tiniest things upset me. I'm having a lot of back pain which makes me not want to do anything which makes me feel terrible because I know I have a lot to do. I'm tired. God I'm just so tired. I knew I would be so I'm trying not to complain but it is frustrating. I find myself getting mad at hubby because he gets to sleep. I'm trying not to. I knew it would be this way since we're breastfeeding but getting up every 2 hours to feed her and calm her down is exhausting. Then he still sleeps just as long as before I was pregnant and then complains he's tired all day 😐 I'm sure he is tired but when I'm doing all the hard parts I don't sympathize well. I just got done crying my eyes out because I spilled 3 oz of colostrum. I've been pumping and bottle feeding her every so often so I know she's eating enough and I was so sore but I forced myself to pump anyway because I really want to do that for her and when I was trying to take the bottle downstairs I dropped it and spilled all of it. I feel terrible about it. It's just a lot of emotions right now. I know there normal but it's tough.

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But while it's hard it's still completely worth it. I've never been so proud of anything in my life. I've never seen more beauty in such a small person. I know it'll be ok