I've been up since 10:30 last night crying. wondering why do I continue to take myself thru this…

I've been up since 10:30 last night crying. wondering why do I continue to take myself thru this with my husband. either he wants to make this work or he wants to divorce. he's talking about going out of town because he's getting depressed. hell I wish I had time to be depressed and get all fucking emotional. I can't because there is a little one inside me that can feel what I feel. 😭