I know i dont have ppd. Im not depressed i get sad but im not depressed. It just sucks being that…

I know i dont have ppd. Im not depressed i get sad but im not depressed. It just sucks being that single mother. I wanted a family and it came crashing down before my son was born. Now that hes here i see many families loving each other and it makes me sad. Happy for them sad bc its wat i wanted. The guy in with now off n on talks about zeb but is really distant from him n i. Idk any more just lost