I'm no better than my mom and he is taking full custody of Alex?... does this mean I'm single?…

I'm no better than my mom and he is taking full custody of Alex?... does this mean I'm single? should I give him another chance? give him Alex? I'm seriously just wanting to give up and turn to depressed Shanna...I don't even have a blanket I can take and curl up in the other room. fuck who needs a blanket...I'll just lay on the floor his drunk ass won't move.😥😦😧😩😞😖😔

feeling lost, helpless and done only thing keeping me going is Alex...mommy's sorry baby. mommy is so so sorry...