I'm 8cm and on my epidural getting check again at 3. Hopefully she'll be here by morning. I'm scared…

I'm 8cm and on my epidural getting check again at 3. Hopefully she'll be here by morning. I'm scared really scared cause I went an hour with out epidural cause the doctor came back to dose me twice and he had an emergency and took it off my back and I was crying and everything. I thought he was never coming back.. I wanted to die.. My fiancé cried because he didn't like seeing me in pain.. I love him so much. when I get contractions sadly I don't let anyone near me.. Or I tell them to stay away and shut it. I know they are trying to help.. But while I have contractions stay away..