I had a dream I was breastfeeding my baby and it bit my nipple and I spanked his little hand so that…

I had a dream I was breastfeeding my baby and it bit my nipple and I spanked his little hand so that it wouldn't do it again and he started crying and crying... I FELT SOOOOO HORRIBLE. .. why did I dream of being a mean mom!!! (it was also a boy and im having a girllllllll....! righttt!? ) #feelinghorible