Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

OK mommies serious question (tho i know I'll get negative comments on) hopefully not. any who, so I'm 18 weeks pregnant and had a question has or is there any mommy that sometimes dabs here and there not all the time just maybe like twice night or at least once in a while (dab-wax-) reason for my question is cause I do sometimes dab in the night once or twice not too get surper high bit to get a relaxed feeling towards where I can still function. I haven't touched it in four days and I'm like wa...

TMI question but just out of curiosity, how often do you have sexy time with your SO? If you don’t want to answer the question or you don’t agree with my question then SCROLL ON because guess what, sex is normal and natural. 🙄 I’ll start, once a week. I know, I know, my sex life sucks 😩

So I apologize if this question is an "eye roller" but please bare with me. Okay so lots of family have been asking me if I'm pregnant with twins because I am showing big time so early on. I know that doesn't always mean multiples but they do run in the family on my husbands side. So my question is at my doctors appointment on Thursday I'll be exactly 13 weeks and although I'm not getting an ultrasound yet I am getting to hear the heartbeat on a doppler. Am I far enough along yet for a doppler t...