I have never been so mad and hurt by my kids I can just feel myself slipping into depression my…

I have never been so mad and hurt by my kids I can just feel myself slipping into depression my heart is broken they they destroyed their brothers recording of his heart beat I had made for him in a stuffed kangaroo it meant a lot to me and his dad who is a first time dad he won't be happy at all they know better then to touch it I told them sense I was 14 weeks not to touch now their brother is a month old I will not be surprised if their brothers dad leaves me because my kids are out of control and no matter what they don't listen I'm just so done .unhappy and miserable