Yep my rooms a disaster but owell I can't get over how high my belly is 😖😖😖 and the doc says his…

Yep my rooms a disaster but owell I can't get over how high my belly is 😖😖😖 and the doc says his head is high which just kills me!! I don't know if I'm dilated or effaced because I refuse to let them check me until I'm full term. There's no need for them to be poking around down there it's not going to change anything he hasn't dropped clearly. I'm just gonna keep walking and talking to the midwife about some good old herbs to help me along. I never thought I'd have the feeling of not wanting to be pregnant because everything has been so great. But here I am thinking lord plz let this lil boy drop so I can breath and start making his way down the canal. I'll be 38 weeks on Monday and I would be ok with him making his way if he was ready. 😕😕😕😕