When all you want to do is cry! Sucks not having the kids here cause then I don't have to hold it…

When all you want to do is cry! Sucks not having the kids here cause then I don't have to hold it back. Find myself crying more than ever lately. When will the pain and heartache end? I know it's when I finally decide to do something about it, but its so hard. Its easier said than done thats for sure.