Alright ladies so I haven't talked about this yet to anyone because I've been trying to figure out…

Alright ladies so I haven't talked about this yet to anyone because I've been trying to figure out how I feel. But my mom keeps trying to talk to me and it's not that I don't want to talk about it I just get to emotional. So I'm hoping you ladies will hear out my venting!

RANT WARNING! (this post contains homosexuals, I'm not leaving it out of my story so if that bugs you keep scrolling)

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So my best friend since kindergarten has been a guy. We grew up together. We went to school together. We got our paramedics licenses together. We have always been together. He's openly gay (he came out in high school which was over 4 years ago for us but he had told me 7 years ago) and I love him very much. He's always been by my side. Always. I can remember calling him one day in tears and upset and even though he lived 2 hours away he immediately left work and came to make sure I was ok. He's the best friend I have ever had. Other than hubby nobody has ever supported me the way he does. He visited me in rehab. He calls at midnight on my birthday. He's great. Hubby loves him too. He's in the military and he goes to college now and he works full time. So my bestie is definitely a busy guy. But he always has been. Sometimes that means our friendship isn't able to take priority and it doesn't offend me. Of course I miss him when he's super busy but I understand. Plus as soon as he has free time he shows up again. And I still get texts and stuff just to check in on me.

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Well here's the problem.

For the past year I lived about an hour away. He came to visit sometimes and I would drive down to visit sometimes. We still messaged a lot and I was so excited about moving home and getting to be near my bestie again. We had all these plans and he told me all the time how excited he was that I was moving back too.

Well we moved back and I didn't really get to see him. We've been back a few months actually and I haven't seen him more than once 😐 but I tried to let it go because I know he gets busy. Well he asked if he could be a co-host of my baby shower with my sister. So I thought he'd be around. But he didn't do anything he said he was going to do. My mom and sister had to rush around the morning of the shower because he didn't do his part. 😵😵 but what really hurt is HE DIDN'T EVEN SHOW UP TO MY BABY SHOWER! I was upset but he's never bailed on me so I tried to let it go and figured he had a good reason. But that was over a week ago and he hasn't so much as sent me a text. I'm really hurt. I can see him on Facebook posting. I can see the pictures he's posting of him and his boyfriend going out together. But he suddenly can't message me?

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I'm hurt. I want to say something to him but idk what. He assured me he would be there. And I'm just hurt that after all that he can't even text me an explanation but he can post pictures of himself getting drunk.

I'm not sure if I'm over reacting or being to sensitive. Plus I just don't know what to say. He's never bailed on me before it's just so unlike him. But I really feel like he hasn't wanted to be around me since I moved back.

Do I talk to him or just let it go? What would I even say