Feeling really discouraged. I don't even know where to start. My youngest has Autism and it requires…

Feeling really discouraged. I don't even know where to start. My youngest has Autism and it requires a lot of work which I wouldn't change for the world, but it also requires I stay home a lot bc he cant handle a lot of stimulation. So here I am third baby on the way wrestling with my lil guy day in day out and it's getting so much harder to move around... and he's all babe can I go fishing . He worked all weekend and all he wants to do is fish which just makes me feel like all he wants to do is not be here. He isn't acting like a man who wants a family and all that comes with it. He better get a Moby bc we have discussed the entire thing over and over. Im not doing this alone once the baby gets here. AINT HAPPENING!! VENT ----_----