Rant: Ever since I've been here to live with my boyfriend now husband on May 29th. I've done nothing…

Rant: Ever since I've been here to live with my boyfriend now husband on May 29th. I've done nothing but try and show him all of my of love, trying to get him to open up. whenever we get into a fight it's me kissing his ass even when he's the one starting it or I have the reason to be mad. when it's night time, I'm there trying to cuddle cause he won't. Yeah he takes all of us out (the girls and I). but I need him to be there mentally, physically and emotionally. I'm there trying to fix whatever the fuck. I'm making him breakfast, dinner for him as I should, I'm cleaning a house that's not even mine. I feed everyone here. the only thing he does to fix us is to go to a room and there's goes my ass like a little bitch. I know I should talk to him but I shouldn't... I expect him to know. I talk to him how I feel how he treats the girls but never how I feel about me. This morning I ask if he wants coffee.. I make out and give it to him, I ask if he wants toast I'll go make it but I put cream cheese on one and ask if he wants to try he said no so I gave him a plain one because there's no butter then he tells me he doesn't want toast. I told him he's a fucking a-hole. now there's tense, he won't apologize what he did and I'll be the bitch to kiss him ass wtf I'm tired of that. he does so much for us but I wish he had an emotion sensor and feel what I feel. I could be like this cause I'm pregnant I wanna blame it on me.