does anyone ever feel really bad about how they treat their SO? like...my hormones make me mad over…

does anyone ever feel really bad about how they treat their SO? like...my hormones make me mad over the smallest things and then I freak out on him. most the time it's us arguing because he's a slob and I'm a neat freak...but he says I'm being mean just to be mean or treating him like a 3 year old. don't get me wrong, I know I am a bitch sometimes and I apologize but I just feel like one day he's gonna be like I'm not dealing with this anymore....