😳 im honestly so sad about my weight. i was never skinny even before henlei but after having her i…

😳 im honestly so sad about my weight.

i was never skinny even before henlei but after having her i am just so much more fat!

it makes me sad. all my life i have stuggled with my weight. (my dads side of the family are fairly big)(except for the ones who had gastric bypass surgery)!

i am one of those people that once i gain its almost impossible to lose no matter what i do.

the only time i lost any weight was when i was doing drugs and what not(obviously not a proud moment in life).

i went to the doctor to talk about my weight and he told me to eat more.

i dont eat as many times a day as i should but im a mom taking care of a almost 8 month old. and sometimes a 1 year old when i babysit.

i dont have time to eat 3 meals plus snacks blah blah.

i just feel so fat none of my old clothes fit i hate having to buy new clothes because i cant find anything and its embarrassing at how big i am.

it makes me so sad.

i dont want kids making fun of my daughter when shes older because she has a fat mom.

and my boyfriend just says oh its ok your not that fat like i dont feel bad enough about myself.

i just dont know what to do and im so sad about it.

i want to be able to be active with my daughter(and possibly other kids in the furture) when shes older and i feel like the rate im headed im gonna be so huge.

i guess im in my feelings.

im just really sad about it.

and i see all these beautiful skinny moms and im just like why cant i be like that why cant i be skinny and pretty.

and to top it off when i feed my daughter he bottle or other food my boyfriend birches because he doesnt want to her to grow up fat!

(everyone in his family is big too).

and obviously i dont want my daughter to be overweight but she not even 1 like wtf? i feel like he expects me to starve her or something so she doesnt get fat.

he pisses me off...but thats another story.

sorry for the rant just had to get it off my chest. 😳😕😕😒😒😞😞😔😔😥😥😭😭