Offically hit rock bottom... Car is about to be repo'd, im starving and my kids feel like they can't…

me. I'm going through it right now.

Trouble doesn't last always and God will never leave nor forsake you my love. Sending prayers up! #beencouraged

I hate having to prance around with a fake smile for my kids all day, just to put them to sleep and seriously ball my eyes out. @monilovesautumn sometimes Ill take 2-3 showers a day just to be able to cry and that way they don't see my eyes are puffy and red. I seriously want to throw the towel in on life, but my kids and baby girl are worth more than anything.

@kendallorkaden, i sure hope so because i really don't know how much more I can take.

Thank you@kendallorkaden

I truly hope you feel better, I would say if you have time scroll through my post back when I was pregnant and on bedrest, life for you may be hard right now but trust me it will get better, things happen and some times we make the mistake of questioning and asking why instead of appreciating what we have right now at the moment, pregnancy for me is was and will always be horrible I hated being pregnant and all of the complications and bedrest it brung, I sunk into a depression which is actually how I found this app when I was about 12 weeks, cry it's okay but not to hard, explain to the kids what's going on because you are mommy their joy, their life and most importantly pregnancy does not last forever, this is only temporary, it will get better praying for you and your family😘😘😘😘😘😘😘

Thanks. It just very hard. I never ever in my life wanted to "depend" on a man. I mean we've been together 11 years and soon to be 4 kids together, but I kinda of have no choice right now as for I have absolutely no choice in being on bed rest. A few months back I found out my man was having an affair and ended up fathering a child who now is probably 6-8 months old. Now if their relationship still is a go IDK because he acts very shady and all. Many times it's days before he comes home and sometimes It feels like I have to be the first to start a conversation cause he wont even bother asking how Baby and I are nor the kids. We, more like I, live in his parents home due to being on bedrest, which I think takes an even bigger toll on me and gets me more depressed because I know they see the fact that their son doesn't come home, but to them its our relationship and they WONT GET INVOLVED NO MATTER WHAT!. @mrssabby

@bradsmom711, oh wow, do you have any family that can help you out or you can go stay with, I'm so sorry you are going through all of this, but it will get better