Never ending feeling of being alone and sad. I seriously hate crying.. Wish my life was at better…

Never ending feeling of being alone and sad. I seriously hate crying.. Wish my life was at better terms right now, but god I guess has plans he's setting me up with. I want my daughter to be here with us, but at the same time I don't I see how much I am struggling to do anything even feed my kids now. I fee like a horrible mother to be bringing another child into this. Sucks because until I got put on bedrest I was doing amazing. Now barely making money and don't have terms to get by. I pray to God that he will help me out. Can't do this anymore I feel like I'm at my breaking point. 😔