Haven't been on here since last Tuesday ..it was also that day I found out my daddy was killed . I was at work breaking…

Haven't been on here since last Tuesday ..it was also that day I found out my daddy was killed . I was at work breaking down into tears and took off work early and rushed to my boyfriend who then tried so hard to comfort me . Ever since I couldn't even eat or smile .. And on the top of this I was overwhelmed with guilt and regret because the past few months I was somewhat mad at him but the only last words I said to him was happy Father's Day ..... I became so heavily stressed becauSe not only dealing with my father'a death I was also in the middle of movin into new house . It was all chaos ... And recently back on Saturday which was the funeral .... It was the Hardest thing I've ever done was saying good bye . Afterwards I got home n as soon as I woke up from a nap I was in soo much pain I couldn't even walk n I was rushed to hospital. Turned out it was a small contraction due to some stress so I had to rest at home .. A lot to take it in all at once

Now I'm 32 weeks pregnant ... Sometimes it's hurts when I walk and I keep having those shooting pain in my vagina when I walk and walk... I dunno if I should or want a maternity leave early ?? But I feel like it's money washed and I'll be forced to go back to work early few weeks after baby is here .