Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I know this sounds sooo fkedup but sometimes i wanna get into a bad accident so my husband sees exactly all the things i do ... and how wrong he is by saying i don’t do enough ( not in those words but the jist of it ) anyway .... i think this all the time . Maybe then he will think differently .

It’s no problem when my money is covering my husbands part of the bills but god forbid when it’s time for him to pay me back no only does he give me a little at a time when I wasn’t paying bills little at a time but he always try to play this guilt card talking about I got no money well I don’t got money either when I have to pay ur portion I don’t feel bad

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep. Every time I lay the baby down he wakes up after like 10 minutes. 😴

I had to share this picture of Raptor! He is still doing amazing! He has lost a little bit of weight but that's expected! Yesterday was our second time trying to breast feed and he latched and sucked!!! It was so amazing and I am so proud of him!