I'm 36 weeks and low key tmi but I'm scared to push or make any kind of pushing like noises or…

I'm 36 weeks and low key tmi but I'm scared to push or make any kind of pushing like noises or movements when I go to the bathroom. Lol every time I go I hold my tummy so the baby won't feel like falling out lol am I the only weirdo??? Hahahaa I've watched to many shows especially that I didn't know I was pregnant lol I really don't want him out yet.