My mom has been helping me with Tristian since he was born which is such a big help. She went to New York for two weeks yesterday and now it's just me and him. I just wanna say that even though I have tristians dad's support, the fact that I'm dealing with all the physical and emotional parts of taking care of him give me SUCH a new found respect for single moms. I've always known they were strong women but there should really be a whole day devoted to them. God bless all the single mothers out there doing what they have to do!!
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
I don't care what ppl think of me, but I'm seriously considering putting my baby up for adoption. I love her with all of heart, but doing this alone is hard. Every single night she just screams to the top of her lungs and I do everything to soothe her. I don't know what to do at all. I wish I had some kind of help. I don't have a single ounce of help. I don't know a single soul in Minnesota either.
I broke down at my moms house today ... because of the debt we owe and Passover is coming and it’s a very expensive holiday ... it was just way too much .... my mom i guess told my brother that I’m suffering and he called me over and asked me why i didn’t just ask for help, and offered to help when i need it . And gave me basically 4K to help for the month and if i need more to ask ... now one thing about me , is that i will suffer silently and won’t ask for help.... I’ve always been that way. ...
I'm all about to trying to help single moms watch their children. But I be damned if I have to teach your child the basic personal hygiene.