👉🏻Venting 😔 I really don't like it when people ask me if I'm excited I feel like I have to put on a…

👉🏻Venting

😔 I really don't like it when people ask me if I'm excited I feel like I have to put on a smile and say "oh yes of course we are" when really I don't feel much at all. I'll be honest and say I don't think reality has hit me as of yet, maybe because I haven't bought anything or because I don't have a room to decorate. Idk even the baby shower that I never wanted has made me more stressed than happy specially since I basically just paid someone to pick out a theme for me I don't even like. But family is family and it was to late to back out once I learned my husband was helping plan and paying for everything. And then it all got put on me because he's to busy with work. I mean I could go on for days about this situation but the point is; I am very happy to be having this little boy it took us 5 years to conceive him and he is my special little bean. But I'm just waiting for him to come so that I can see his face, smell him, listen to him breath, have him skin to skin and learn his personality. I've only cried once over him this whole time and that was at the very first ultrasound. Everything else is just relief that he ok and growing right at pace.