I know a lot of you don't know my situation and I think that's why we all feel free to post our deepest and darkest feelings at the time. I've been with my man for 2 years. We've had so many bumps in the road and it's been really hard for me to just open back up like I used too. In the beginning of my pregnancy I was okay with our rocky relationship and came to terms with it ending. Then for whatever God given reason at the end of my pregnancy, he changed; changed everything around and I'm so proud of him. I was head over heels in love and risked a lot of things for this relationship in the beginning and now it just all came rushing back. And I'm sitting here in the hospital wanting to run the fuck away just us 3. I hope that we can just get an apartment somewhere and do it. I don't want to wake up anymore without him. I thought I was over all this and I'm just not. He's been doing so much for me and I just couldn't ask for anything more.